27th of July 2010

Wait. What’s the date today? I have even forgotten it. It feels like my days are going soooo slow these last months. Luckily, I’m not “trapped” again in situation whereI can’t find happiness left.
Okay. Based on the calendar, it’s 27th of July now. So it’s.... 18 days left.


What...what should I do to fill this “waiting” time? Not much. Playing games a lot I guess is what I do lately. The games that, in fact, makes me even more bored. but I think it’s better than do nothing.
By the way, I’ve found 2 versions of name. It’s all related to fasting month. But... it doesn’t mean I really want it to happen exactly at the time. I mean, sooner maybe better. Coz it’s so much harder of being puffy like this ( I guess it’s good if men try to experience this so that they’ll stop staring at any kind of fat-belly women. What do you think?).


I really want to make something in this kind of time. Like... making short stories, or even a part of a novel. Still, this laziness ”forces” me to look at laptop’s screen with blank idea. (un)creativity virus really crawl my head.
By the way again... I felt a bit surpise finding him really concerned on what I’ll experience. He looks just so worried. Well, he finally knows the difference of life and death and the situation in between, the natural strength of women given by God, the importance of appreciating mothers all around the world.


I don’t know whether it will be easy or not. But I always ask Him to ease my way, always. And may God bless me in His way.ameen.


I love you, Ashaumy/Ashauman! I really do.